Life is good atm, I'm finding someone new to replace Nick which I was so madly in-love with. Don't get me wrong but I don't have the guts to stay in-love with someone who is not the same religion as mine. Me myself is not so religious and what? staying with a fella not the same side as mine, which really is bothering me act. I had a real good 3 month relationship. For ppls not see-ing why I made this decision, they said I fucked up things between me & Nick. Nevermind, there's not a single fuck given anyway, I do what I do best as long it will not hurt anyone else after this.
However, he is the only guy that know me better then I do myself (Sigh I always feel like that eventhou' we knew ourself better then anyone else you moron) Act the real words spoken here is, Nick know how to make me feel better everytime. Yes, every single fucking time. The things is like, we're not meant to be.
In my way to move on, I've hurt a cpl of guys and been hurt too (OK? huh) and I did said sorry to all of them. So be it. I mean, forgiving ppls is better so I hope they forgive me. I know one/two of them who hold grunge over me. Well, god knows the story better does He? ;)
So now I'm absolutely a free birds !
Anyway, I'm so happy because slowly I've achieve what I've been dreaming abt all this years. Trust me, if I don't work for it I might a hundred steps back from everyone. So what is it act that I'm achieving? Here,
- I'm setting up a zine of my own poets collection, it's not much but hey I simply know how to poet nowdays and it felt good.
- Studying Masscom and realizing I'm major in broadcasting (My lecturer, media's friends & my uncle said that to me) I loved being in broadcasting world. See how it get connected?
- I'm back on track in my arts world ! Patching, knite, draw, sketching, coloring here & there. Amazing feelings :')
- Me & my Masscom coursemate joined a college talent show last month and we made our own stand-up comedy theater despite only getting a 2nd place, we really enjoyed ourself (and the audience too). As for the lectures & audiences request, we will do our own theater event show next semester & guess what?! THE PROPOSAL IS DONE ! Yayy !
- Currently playing synth for Zombies Bite Daisy Kill band. ahsdgjehfgaedgjh!!! OMG FINALLY I HAVE A BAND WHICH CONSIST OF MY OWN LOVEY DOVEY HOMMIES GOOD FRIENDS AND I'M PLAYING SYNTH. I LOVE SYNTH, I LOVE KEYBOARD !!!!
Gosh (-_-) that's kindda over act. Gah. But hey that's how much I love my life now izit. Yayy. Thanks to god, without His "permission" even no one could achieve things I get now. and thanks to my family to, they sacrifice alot for me and my BFFS, Niesa Alli (I love you babygirl!) So that's for now. Will update again soon !
God bless me x
